Be-Strong Syndrome

I have been feeling really weird lately. Wait I guess I should start by saying this is hard for me to put out there. Anyway I picked up a book last night in my nightstand that I have no idea where it came from so if it is yours you can claim it. It is called The Friendship Factor. I almost read the whole thing last night its all about relationships: friend to friend, husband to wife, and parent to child. I'm reading along thinking I'm pretty good at some of this stuff then I get to, talk freely about your feelings. Then the book started talking about the Be-Strong Syndrome that is so funny to me because I'm always making fun of all these Syndromes that the world has made up for things just to give a title to how someone feels. I always knew I must have some kind of Syndrome! Back to the book, what I realized last night is I am a strong women but I don't have to have the Syndrome.......I need to be vulnerable with my feelings sometimes and doing that doesn't make me weak. It is OK to be strong but sometimes it can make you hard that I don't want to be. I have a tendency to laugh my feelings away or make jokes about myself because it is easier! I guess I need to understand that people don't automatically know what I need from them or that I even need them for that matter. The problem is I don't know what I need sometimes. I guess I NEED God the most and maybe to stop looking so much at others to fulfill my needs and more to God. This is very unusually long for me so I'm out of here. I'm sure I will post something later, just to get this one further down on my blog so that by chance people might not read it!